Thintensity

It's news to nobody that there is a pressure on anyone old enough to understand size that it's a negative thing to be overweight. Nutritionists and doctors warn us about BMIs and body fat percentages and Dietitians tell us that we aren't getting enough fruits, veggies, meats, grains, and too much fats, sugars, and oils. This coupled with statistics about Obesity, both child and adult lead us all to believe that we must be all slowly dying unless we shape up.

But a few of us have been blessed with a natural slim body. Like me.

However, just because I can eat almost everything I want and not gain an ounce, does not mean that I am not above issues of body dismorphia.

The past few weeks I have been using exercise to move myself from the slump of a post relationship mood of "blah" to motivate myself to become better. To be more desirable, to be more attractive. I think that I'm attractive most days, but I know that I could do better. I work myself til I'm sick or until I can't move because I'm so sore due to lactic acid build up. I go evenings, days, several days without eating if I'm having a fat day or if something comes up, I just won't eat. Unfortunately for me, this isn't healthy.

I'm working on learning to love myself every hour of every day. It's hard work, because especially when I fuck up or feel icky, I am my own worst enemy. But through the love of my friends and family, I'm working on it while still pushing myself to become better, but it's now for the right reasons and in a healthier manner.